Learning

The past several weeks I have been frustrated as a mother when I have to repeat myself over and over again to the boys. Whether it is telling Logan to not "sass" me or telling Luke that both Daddy and Papa are at work, when he asks me about them often throughout the day. I feel as if I repeat myself a hundred times a day. I do realize that they are still so young, but nonetheless they are days that I wish they would just get it!

As I was thinking about this, I realized that this is how my Jesus must feel with me at times. He has to constantly tell me things over and over and I bet there are days that He wishes I would just "get it."

I have struggled, probably my whole adult life, with a daily quiet time. By that, I mean a time during the day that I can set aside time, by myself, to study my bible and pray. Basically, set aside time to learn more about my Savior and to draw closer to Him.

I am good at making plans to do this in my head, but not so good as executing the plan. I probably have posted about this before, but still this is something that I struggle with daily. I talk myself into just doing this or that first before having a quiet time and then before I know it, it is midnight and I am too tired to do anything.

I have been thinking about this a lot this past week. I have been very moved at what the power of prayer can do. Especially in the case of little Miss Harper. Again, to read her amazing story, please click on the "Pray for Harper" button to the right. God is moving and healing her and it is amazing to see all of the love and support for her and her family from strangers. People are praying all over the world for her. While I am so excited to hear she is doing better every day, I am also amazed at her parents.

Harper's parents have never lost faith in their God. Sure they have asked why their little girl, but the thing that has struck me the most is that right after Harper was born, her mom posted and she was very scared because they didn't know what was going on at that point. They only knew that their sweet little baby was very sick. She mentioned in a blog post that God was Sovereign. He was the same to them in that rough and scary time after Harper was born as He was to them during that morning when they were excited and praising Him on their way to the hospital. How amazing!

I was just telling Dustin that I don't ever want our children to be in a life threatening situation, and who would!, but my prayer is that I could remain that strong in faith even when I was shaken to my core. You see, I have this power thing. I need to be in control of situations. If I am not then I am a crazed person.

I have realized since becoming a mom that I can't be in control of situations. That there are many, many times that I must just trust in God. I know that He will be there right with me and will see me through. I am better than I used to be, trust me and is it all because of God!

I say all of this because I truly believe when we are dependent on God and have a "real" relationship with Him, it is easier to deal with the tough times in our lives. Not only that, but we are able to be more joyful about life in the not so bad times. Let's face it, times are tough right now. Everybody is struggling in some way or another, but with God was are better able to handle life. Because of God, we have hope and having hope is an amazing thing!

So, I am learning a lot this week. I am learning that just as Jesus is with me, I need to be more patient with my precious boys (who really are blessed that they are soooo cute!) and I need to become a better Christian by spending more time in bible study and prayer.

What are you learning this week?